![Thoughts I wish were gone thoughts but aren’t](https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/629d1b0268ead969a77437a4/1657698346610-AF9Z3KJP7PA06OC137DD/grief.jpg)
Thoughts I wish were gone thoughts but aren’t
The only thing I seem to have the capacity to think is: fuck. How did we end up here?
![Ski like a girl](https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/629d1b0268ead969a77437a4/1654985326495-J5T4LZVHS25LE594ZUJB/barrille2.jpg)
Ski like a girl
It was clear they had assumed I as a man. My first impulse was to brush it off, but the more I thought about it, the more it bothered me.
![A moment in the Alaska Range](https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/629d1b0268ead969a77437a4/1654469475525-Z5GIYK71OCZ6ZRWGICAG/barrille1.jpg)
A moment in the Alaska Range
Last month, I pushed the limits of my risk tolerance and ended up skiing the rowdiest line I’ve skied yet.
![Notes on being Chinese but not quite](https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/629d1b0268ead969a77437a4/1654564344788-3PEP34T58PZ6VYSU20OQ/me2.jpg)
Notes on being Chinese but not quite
In light of it being Asian American and Pacific Island Heritage month, here is something that I wrote a year ago but never shared.